I Am Divine

Veined and spidered photos of girl with tomorrow eyes
A niaive lyric written by a younger hand than mine
Let them sleep, let them sleep
It's past, move on
Put them back in the box
Marked "do not dwell upon"

Breathe the ghosts between the lies
Haunting embers

Waking hagged and laden down, air rushing to my lungs
White noise from the ceiling fan sounds like some foreign tongue
Let me sleep, let me dream
Without guilt, without shame
Seratonin reuptake inhibited again

Still the fire that brands and binds
Sears and twists me
Nightmare faces in the flames
They reach and beckon

The dark has a life of its own
It voice makes no sound yet it's spoken your name
Shakes the memories loose from myself
And replays them over and over again...
to an audience of one....
replays them over and over again.....and again......
and again, til the dawn

Hands raised to the sky to touch the two faces of god
Ankle-deep barefoot to ground me - stand where no other has trod

The absentees walk in glee
And talk of beliefs in murmurs
We once conspired to flee this shire
And start our flight
Under auroralight

Under fire from all sides
I will not change, I am divine
And though betrayed and compromised
I will not break, I am divine
Head in hands for old times
I know no shame, I am divine

So here I am, uncomfortably exposed
I'll hide my intentions behind innuendo
And an uneasy underused smile
I flash at you from behind my guile

Music's deep within my soul
It defines me
Take this melody and go
But sleep uneasy...